Three

There have always been three.

I don't know why. I can't explain it.

But there have always been three.

I don't know why I'm writing this now, don't know why I've suddenly realized. I think it's because for awhile now I thought there were only two. But now I know better. Now I know.

It's always three.

I hate that fact. It makes me sick. Not because there are three of course, that's rather incidental. But of how I figured out the third, because of the third.

Fuck.

I'll keep struggling with it. Keep shouting it down.

It's still there.

I'm just learning how to control it. Learning that it is not true. It's not true. Not true. Not.

True.