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"One thousand pounds for an elephant? It's outrageous! You've been diddled."- Cedric Hardwicke as Sir Francis Gromatry in Around The World In 80 Days

Yes. Yes I have been diddled. IF by diddled we mean thrown for a loop once again of course. In a good way perhaps?

Last night I felt ten feet tall. Last night I ruled the world. I shouted down Hob and all those other inglorious bastards and battled my way to the top of the mountain. Of course the top of the mountain looks an awful lot like the bottom of the mountain, but who am I to argue?

And Hob got his shot in. It was quick and painful and I'll hold it against him till the day we die, but he got his shot in fucking cunt that he is.

I told three stories last night that I haven't told in years. One that I may never have told. I ended up in a place I didn't expect to be in having a conversation I never expected to have. It was another one of those fantastically horrible "What the hell am I doing here?" type of moments.

I miss the days that there used to be more of those.

This is the exchange happened near the end of a conversation I had last night:

"I don't expect much, I don't want much. When I'm bored I have things I can go do. When I'm lonely I have people I can go see. I have enough money for everything I need, and for the things I want usually. And if I don't, I work harder so that I will. I've got it pretty good when you think about it. So no, I don't want much."

"Maybe you want so very little, because you already have so very much. But...who are you really trying to convince?"

"Ha...yeah."

And for once I wasn't the one saying the smart thing.

Sometimes other people play you like a fiddle. Sometimes the world does it for them. What's the difference though? Everything we want we pay for. Sometimes it's with money and other times it's not. But make no mistake we pay either way.

And it's usually worth it.

"Undoubtedly. But it's not often one needs an elephant in a hurry." David Niven as Phileas Fogg in Around The World In 80 Days