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"In Lieu Of My Story"
By Palomba (KING)

Saturday, July 10th 2004

In Lieu Of My Story | 11:03 PM

Earlier tonight I watched The Station Agent , it wasn't one of the best movies of all time, but I really, really liked it. It struck a chord with me. It's going to sound silly, or stupid, or sweet...but I understood what it felt like to be Finbar McBride.

Months ago I went and saw The Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind, I saw it alone, and in the weeks that followed I talked to a lot of people about it. It was a good movie, on about the same level as The Station Agent if you ask me. And well I enjoyed the movie and loved the fact that I could talk to people about it, it didn't hit me in the same way The Station Agent did.

See people could see themselves in Joel Barrish, they wanted to forget things. Unpleasant memories, old relationships, mistakes and the like. I didn't see myself in Joel, but I do see myself in Fin. Fin is a dwarf, I'm a fat ugly bastard. Fin spends all his time around trains, I spend all my time around school busses. Fin has Olivia and Joe, I have...well let's not get into who I consider friends, it's the kind of conversation that can only end badly. With at least me getting hurt.

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know how many times I can say that today. I'm not feeling poetic, not feeling profound. I'm just feeling...simple...as well as very, very small and inconsequential



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"Reject X Rides Again"
By Palomba (KING)

Sunday, July 11th 2004

Reject X Rides Again | 5:29 PM

I felt it today. In one of this afternoon's many moments of laziness I felt that longing for something more, that longing for something better.

I've come to the conclusion that a man only has enough life in him to chase one uncatchable dream. It can be fame or fortune, power or pleasure, maybe even pain. It can be so many things, and sure, if you're lucky you can have them all. But some of us just aren't that lucky. I know I'm not.

I supposed you can really chase as many of those dreams as you'd like, but you probably won't catch a single one. You need to focus. Put all your eggs in one basket. Pick the dream that you most want to chase, even if you're convinced you can't catch it.

So what's it going to be hotshot? Fame or Fortune? How about neither? How about something simpler, something I want more than anything else?

It's about time for me to make some decisions.