Clear?

"I never thought I'd see you again."

"Why do people keep saying that?"
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So I just shuffled through the cards tonight and am already wondering if I've chosen a suitable hand. I think I've found that, if I really need to, I can stop this. I can turn this on and off as I see fit. I can flip the switch and be in a place where this is an ok situation to be in and I can flip the switch back and be lost in the vagaries of the human mind.

Note that this doesn't make this easier. Note that this doesn't makes this better. It just helps me survive. And really, right now, that's all this is about.
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"I've seen the way you look at them. Heard the things you say about them. I don't want to be them."

"You won't be."

"I'm afraid I already am."