Stoop A Little Lower Why Don't You?

"I know, I know...I'm a horrible person, but let's try and get over that." - King

"Acting is a career, directing is a career, writing is just a hobby that gets a little out of hand." - T.O. Hob

"Oh, Oh! And I'm supposed to remember your name too? Isn't that asking a little much?"- King

"Well you sure turned out ok. Wait...that was absolutely the wrong thing to say wasn't it?" - King

"Remember that time back in July when I lost my mind and tried to have myself commited to a mental institution? Well this is nothing like that." - Palomba

I have been living in the dark. One year ago today I started an odd little ritual which involved me not seeing the light of day for a full week. Without even realizing it today I started again. From sunset last night till sunset tonight I didn't leave my little apartment. Didn't open a window, peak through the shades, nothing. I lived in the dark...and I started it again. Now I have a job, something to force me into the sunlight. It pains me to no end that something so trivial as a career will momentarily pull me from the darkness...but I know the truth. No matter how bright the sun may shine, there is no light...we run on.

Permit me to be juvenile for a bit. A tiny bit immature.

I can't weave the words on this one. They're unweavable. So I'll just say it.

Have you ever liked something? There's a funny thing about liking things. I mean there's a lot of funny things about liking things. But one funny thing is that other people can actually make you like things less.

I know this is barely in English, but stay with me here.

So say there's someone you absolutely can't stand. And this person likes the same thing you do. Don't you begin to like it a little less? They don't even have to know you like it, they don't even have to say they like it, all they have to do is show that they don't have an absolute disdain for it and you begin to like it a little less. The fact that someone you can't stand likes the same thing you do almost ruins it for you.

And on the flip side. Say there's someone you adore, someone you think the world of. And they hate something you like. Don't you begin to doubt whether you like it or not? They don't even have to know you like it, they don't even have to say they hate it, all they have to do is hint that they look down on it just a little bit and you begin to like it a little less. The fact that someone you worship doesn't like the same thing you do almost ruins it for you.

I think perhaps I thought too much about this.

"God must not have been paying attention the last time he fucked me over, because guess what? He's doing it again." - Palomba