The Not-So-Great Return of Team One

"No time for a real entry right now, Team One is rumbling into town to put me out of business and I have to go defend the fort (and buy them breakfast)." - Palomba, from Night In The Lonesome October, October 1st, 2004

Five months ago on the the morning of my first encounter with Team One I made the mistake of saying something I shouldn't have said to someone I shouldn't have said it to.

I didn't realize then how unimportant it was. There were no repercussions, no consequences for my mistake. Unfortunately, like a lot of people this person wasn't a part of my life anymore. I could have said anything. It wouldn't have made a difference.

That's sort of how I feel here.

No matter what I say or how I say it...everything stays the same.

So the last few days have been absolutely crazy. I haven't stopped since Monday. I didn't realize it was only Wednesday till I got home tonight, I can't believe how long this week is turning out to be.

I realize that I haven't had but two easy days since I got out of college ten months ago. It wasn't really all that bad, but it certainly wasn't great either. I didn't expect to do anything but work, and life so far is living up to my expectations. I'm not bummed about it, confused definitely, but not down. Not out.

I haven't found that next great thing to look forward to. I'm working on it, I swear, but I haven't found it just yet.

So five months after my last great mistake I'm ready to make another one.

Isn't that always just the case?

I'm going to forget about the rest of the world.

Maybe for the next seven hours, maybe forever, I don't know.

So just in case...

To all the people I've lost along the way, those who have fallen below, and those who have risen above. Those who made my life what it is and have slowly stopped being a part of it. Those who I miss like you wouldn't believe.

Thanks.

"When you're feeling too close to the bottom,
You know who it is you can count on.
Someone will pick you up again
we can conquer anything together .
All of us are bonded forever,
If you die, I die...that's the way it is." - Pennywise, Bro Hymn