Past The Point of No Return: Sheer Exhaustion

That part of me that is still capable of logical thought acknowledges that I'm working myself into an early grave, the rest of me just doesn't care.

I'm so tired.

Have you ever been at that point where you're so tired everything you do makes your eyes water? The simple act of seeing has become so difficult you're practically blinded by "tears". Everything is clear unless you move too quick and then things become blurry, moving your head results in the feeling like the whole world is swimming around you. Everything blinks on and off because your body is trying to rest and just can't.

I'm so tired I'm delusional. I've spent the last two hours trying to convince myself there are not sewing pins in my mouth, but every time my body attempts to shut down I have to start over. I have the uneasy feeling that I've been pulling these pins out of my gums all night, and when I stop trying to fight it I can actually feel the pain of something that never happened. My damn mouth is actually sore from just thinking this.

I know, I know it sounds insane. And most likely it is. I know all I need is a good night's sleep.

Instead, I am going back to work.

I am so very, very tired.