Goals

Starting today I am going to play the game a little differently. Not permanently, just for now.

Starting today I will wake up every morning with a goal. Something to accomplish that day.

I will wake up in the morning knowing what I want, and go to sleep knowing that I've gotten it.

No matter how small the goal this will be my silver lining.

Some days will be fun. My goal will be to laugh a lot, or go see a movie, or buy something nice.

Other days will be more work. My goal will be to finish all my paperwork, pay all the bills, organize my affairs.

There will be days where my goals are about other people. I will make someone smile, I will make someone cry (in a good way of course), I will make someone feel something they haven't felt in days.

There will be days when my goals are about me. I will make an effort to see them, I will make an effort not to think about her, I will think about nothing but her (no effort required).

When my day looks to be tough my goals will be simple. Show up for work on time, eat lunch without interruption, go for a nice relaxing drive.

And when the days look to be easy, well then the goals will be too. Afterall, why ruin a good thing?

There will be days where, no matter how hard I try, even the simplest of goals will stay just out of reach. But there will be days when even the impossible is just an arm's length away. Either way...

If I get through the next two days I will have bested one of the rockiest nine day stretches of my life. Monday no longer holds my salvation, and Tuesday could be the end of a good run...who knows what that will do to me. Nine days could become ninety, and it all could disappear. But...

I will wait for them in the high grass...and they will come. I won't be ready, and I'll only know of one thing to do. It's simple really.

A man stands up.

And starting today...that's my goal.