The Return of The Afflictions?

For years I've fought several afflictions and it would seem in the last few years I've managed to, at least in some degree, control them more often than they control me. However just in the past few days I've felt it all slipping. I'm beginning to get...and forgive the cliche...twitchy.

I know it sounds like a cop out, or just plain simple anxiety, but people who don't get like this may have a real hard time understanding. It's not stress (not purely anyway) or anxiety (though that plays a part). Truth is I don't really know what it is. And I don't always know what causes it.

This time it's a little different.

I know what's causing this.

I'm tired. It's been too long since I've had a break. I'm starting to become frustrated. The old man keeps promising to step back and yet he keeps on getting in the way, either not knowing or not caring that what he's doing is often inefficient at best and harmful at worst. The kid keeps getting handed stuff that he doesn't deserve. I'm busting my ass and he's reaping the benefits of being a fuck up. I'm playing too loose with my money. I've spent entirely too much this year, and am in danger of not getting everything I was supposed to get. And with what I've been doing I really should be getting so much more than I get. The "diet" is both going well and failing miserably at the same time. Everything is changing and nothing is changing. There are quite a few people I used to see and talk to on a regular basis that I don't see and talk to nearly as much as I'd like and I miss them something awful. There's an "old friend" I haven't seen in a few weeks and probably won't (or at the very least shouldn't) see for awhile coming up. There are strangers who have me all tied in knots. Ghost who won't stop haunting me. Corrupted souls whose guilt lays heavy on my shoulders. And a certain unfortunately fortunate little situation that has my head spinning. I feel the beginning of an obsession coming on and I'm afraid I no longer know how to deal with it. And I'm tired. Did I mention how tired I am? The next few months have the potential to be very very dangerous for me. Years ago I knew I was strong enough to get through. Strong enough to survive. Now? I'm not so sure.

Not so sure at all.

*twitch*