Monday Moments

"How can you argue with an ass like that?" - Rigby

"Did you just..." - King

"Yeah, Kind of surprised myself with that one too." - Rigby

I've had better days. Had worse too. But I've never left a room feeling so agitated over nothing in my life. I don't have my plan just yet. Don't know what I plan on doing next. But one thing is becoming clear. I can't keep doing this. Not like this at least. Things need to change.

I spent so long worrying about fixing the big picture that I let the small things get out of hand. It's the normal everyday life going a certain way sort of bullshit that we all go through. And I know how angry I get when other people give-up, cash it in, pull the plug and start trying to get used to something they don't really want to get used to. And it's starting to piss me off too. Because I know. I know the things not everyone does. I just don't know how to use them.

Maybe it's because I like the idea of what I could be here so much more than I like the idea of what I could be anywhere else. I don't want this, but I don't want any of that either. I can get what I want no matter where I am...so why haven't I?

So this isn't it. It's not the beginning of anything, not the notice that things are going to change, not that big blazing neon sign that reads "Salvation Here", or "This Is Not An Exit", or "Eat At Joes". This isn't anything like that.

This is just Monday. And this has been a Monday Moment.

"It's entirely too bad that no one in your life ever took the time to tell you to go fuck yourself. I'm convinced it would have done you a world of good." - T.O. Hob