Silence Shattered

Well...

I've been writing a lot lately, and posting very little for a few reasons.

Those reasons being that I've just been busy, that I wasn't feeling well for a bit and tried actually resting to feel better, and that I've been sorting through a lot in my head.

I'll take a minute to discuss all this.

First...

Lots of bids this week, just ridiculous amount of bids not just for this summer but for next school year. Lots of bills to get caught up on. Lots of paper work in general. Doing stuff for financing on the busses I just bought and stuff for the accountant who still hasn't done our year ends. My uncle's mother died last week, and though I barely knew her I knew her enough to know she was a good woman and I liked her. That meant I had to go to a wake on Thursday and a funeral on Friday and though it cut into my actual work schedule very little it slowed me down enough to put me behind again.

Second...

So I wasn't feeling well again, that happens quite a bit. I was also pretty exhausted, so I was picking and choosing when and how I was resting. I'm feeling quite a bit better now and even a little less tired. But still tired...and hungry. Which brings me to...

Third...

It's only been a week and a half but I've been trying to eat better and exercise more. The weights and treadmill got delivered early so I've been lifting and walking for a couple of days now. It's been over a week since I've drank any soda, had any fast food or take-out food at all, and just in general eaten anything unhealthy. I don't cook so that means I've been eating raw vegetables and fruit pretty much exclusively for the past ten days. I've been eating fresh mozzarella and roasted red peppers when the fruit wasn't cutting it, but we're just starting here folks. Baby steps, baby steps.

I'm fairly confident that I can keep up the light exercise. I'm not doing so much that it's a burden right now, when I get tired, I stop. If I feel winded, I stop. If I'm too sore, I stop. I'm just warming up really, it's going to take a really long time for me to get this sorted.

The food is another story altogether. As long as I have healthy food immediately available I'm absolutely certain I can keep it up. If I open my refrigerator and there's watermelon and green peppers there, I'm good. If I can drink some pure apple juice, there's no need for soda. As long as I get to the grocery store twice a week I'll be golden. But when I miss, just once...well it's a hell of a lot easier to get a pizza delivered or pick-up a burger at the drive-thru then it is to hunt down something healthy. It will be a challenge.

My next step is to pick up a new Foreman Grill, because at some point I'm going to need me some chicken. I can go months without red meat as long as I can eat chicken. So I figure grilling some chicken with either some Adobo seasoning or hot sauce once or twice a week won't hurt me too bad.

I really would kill for a #6 Biggie Size with a Sprite right about now though, know what I'm saying?

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Other things...

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Stan Winston died yesterday. For those of you who don't know he was the major Hollywood special effect genius. It pretty much went Ray Harryhausen and then Stan Winston as far as my admiration for that type of creative talent went. He was only 62.

Tim Russert died on Friday. He was one of those guys I genuinely looked up to in the field of journalism. When I was studying journalism in college if there was one guy I could have been it would have been him. He was only 58.
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Turi brought me the new drawings for my wall unit. It's going to be awesome. I picked up a few more Moore statues and ordered the two Daredevil LSB's I've been eyeing for a while. I also pre-ordered the new Hellboy II PF to go with the Hellboy PF I won on Ebay last week. I'm genuinely excited about that, and almost a little nervous about how pissed the old man is going to be when he gets back...in a few hours.

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Little sister's birthday is tomorrow. She turns th-*cough*-en, I mean thir-*cough*-n, I mean...shit, I can't say it. She turns twelve again. How about that. That makes me feel better.

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Money...well this is a fun one. See I have money hidden away in various places, but I did something last week I didn't want to do. I dipped into the savings. Between the backyard and the exercise stuff I was in the whole eight grand. Add to that my wildly out of control Collection and I was a bit in the stinker. I know I could just take more money. I know I could just do whatever I want really, but I'm sort of in an awkward place right now. I sort of like not carrying around three grand at all times. Just makes me more...careful.

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So I haven't been to a go-go bar in...a month? Could that be right? It's something like that though. The guys haven't really been around, and I've been sort of busy, and the last three times I would have gone...I couldn't go. Sort of makes things a little boring lately. No fast food, no drinking and no whoring. What kind of life is that?

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I also haven't seen anyone much lately. It's been at least a month since I've seen Nick or Forti, haven't really heard from Gonzo lately, I saw Sean and Nate last weekend but it's probably been a few weeks since I've hung with Jere. I've been stopping by to see Mrs.K at open youth room the past few weeks, and ran into Michelle and a couple of the other younger kids there. But I haven't seen anyone from team and since my momentary ineptitude wiped out the planned trip for the 7th I don't know when I'll be lucky enough to see any of them. It sounds awfully lonely, but the truth is I only notice when I have a moment to slow down long enough to think about it...like right now.

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So...in summary. I'm trying some new things, missing some old friends, excited about stuff I have no right to be excited about. Now if only I had enough time to sleep and hit up the go-go bar I'd be all set.