I Always Say If You Have One Hot Dog With Ketchup And One Hotdog With Ketchup And Relish You Should...

...eat the one with Ketchup first. Otherwise what do you have to look forward to?

For the second time in a month I had someone offer me a puppy. I have no use for a puppy, nowhere to keep it, no one to watch it while I work.

Both times I accepted.

Neither time did I actually get a puppy.

There are very few things in life as depressing as missing out on a free puppy.

I made an offer on the house I live in today. I was turned down. It was quite the bummer. It probably means I'm out of a place to live in the next few months.

I've been doing everything I could to keep this business on its feet. Other people are doing everything they can to tear it down. I'm still winning, but my old man is ready to give up. It probably means I'm out of a job in the next few months.

I have no nerve when it comes to certain things. I'm afraid I may never get anywhere with her. It probably means I'll be alone for the rest of my life.

No home. No job. No girl.

No puppy.

Shit.

So...why am I still smiling?

Potential baby, potential.

For the first time in a long time, I don't know what's going to happen next. I love it.

Maybe I'll find another house, or maybe my landlord will change his mind, or maybe a million friggin other things will happen. It's not the end of the world...and even if it was that would mean I wouldn't have to worry about it anymore.

So what if I'm out of a job? If I could love doing this I can love doing anything. I'm smart, funny, a good guy all around. I've got a little money put away, I can spend some time working on me. Lose a shitload of weight, go back and get my masters, spend more time with my family and my friends. Maybe I even come out of this with a nice compensation package, enough to start my own business. Shit...maybe the old man loses his nerve, or starts to believe in me, and I get to keep on trying to straighten this joing out. Whatever right?

The personal life...ha, well, hey. Can't win them all, right? Or can you? Why should now be different then any other point in my life? I can give you a million reasons. I'll just have to try harder, or even try at all. I know it won't just sort itself out, but when was the last time I just gave up on anything? There's still time...still plenty of time.

And as far as that other matter goes...I'll just have to wait till someone offers me another puppy.