I'm Leaving But I Don't Know Where To

"So i’m up at dawn
puttin’ on my shoes
i just wanna make
a clean mistake
i’m leavin’ but i don’t know where to
no I’m leaving but i don’t know where to." - Bright Eyes, Walk Away

"They say God works in mysterious ways. I don't think so. I think God's perfectly obvious and we're just too thick to notice." - T.O. Hob

"I guess I'm lucky. At least God buys me dinner before he fucks me." - Lazarus Jones


I knew it. I swear I knew it before it happened. When I woke up yesterday morning I knew tonight would be my last show. I felt great yesterday, I was excited about a bunch of things. I had ideas, I had my shit going so to speak. I was almost a year clear of everything , busting my ass at work, and beginning to plan some new things for my life...kind of.


Then I started thinking...and I knew it was over.

Tonight was the last show at WRSU for Matt and I.

Oddly enough I was ok with that.

I'd rather have somewhere to go now that we're done, but I'll figure out what's next as I go.

See like a lot of people I constantly look back on my regrets, but I can honestly say there's not a single thing I regret doing during my time at WRSU. There are more than a few things I regret not doing, but so what? It was fun.

I would say thank you, say that you don't know what it all meant to me...but I'm afraid you just might. And thanks anyway.

I've been thinking a lot lately.

I don't smile enough.

I need to work on that.

And now I'll have a little extra time to do just that.