Fair?

So let's be fair here. To me of course. Fuck everybody else.

No seriously.

I did something pretty shitty. But I don't know why I feel shitty about doing it. It didn't hurt anybody, it won't hurt anybody. It's not like I meant to do it, not like I got anything out of it, or could in any way profit from it. I'm not ashamed, or embarrassed, or shy about it. It's not like it makes me the bad guy.

But it happened.

And that sort of pisses me off.

I'm supposed to be in control. I'm supposed to have everything just so. I'm supposed to be the one that calls the shots. I say the word and the whole world shifts three inches to the right.

I'm the boss.

I'm the king.

I'm the Hob.

And of course I've gone and hobbed things all up.

But let's be fair here...it's not like I've done anything wrong...so why do I feel so shitty about it?